Right now the cafe I’m in is playing the full Mamma Mia soundtrack and wow i am not ready for all that at 10am. I am already having a hard day. It’s my nanny boss’s birthday and so I’m working from 12pm to 10pm and I woke up exhausted so it’s gonna be a rough one. I woke up an hour before I had to go (this is a win because lately I’ve been waking up at 10:25 am when I’m supposed to leave at 10:30 am). I made my self coffee which I took one sip of and gagged. I managed to put on mascara and blush and brush my teeth and I felt proud that I had the effort for that.
For me so far 2019 is about trying to stay sane and working hard. Also a bit more adulting. I’ve stopped treating myself to anything and everything I want (last night I wanted pizza so badly and I resisted). Tomorrow I’m having my friends over for dinner. We are making comfort food and I still don’t know what I’m making and my home is still a mess. Nick is going to make his corn casserole and I think I’m gonna make I’m excited because I love having my people over in my home and lighting candles and cleaning surfaces and all the cute preparation stuff. I hope that when I’m a mom that our house is the cool house that all my kid’s friends hang out at.