Right now the cafe i’m in is playing the full Mamma Mia sound track and wow i am not ready for all that at 10am.  I am already having a hard day.  It’s my nanny bosses birthday and so I’m working from 12pm to 10pm and I woke up exhausted so it’s gonna be a rough one.  I woke up an hour before I had to go (this is a win because lately I’ve been waking up at 10:25 am when I’m supposed to leave at 10:30 am).  I made my self coffee which I took one sip of and gagged.  I managed to put on mascara and blush and brush my teeth and I felt proud that I had the effort for that.

For me so far 2019 is about trying to stay sane and working hard.  Also a bit more adulting.  I’ve stop treating myself to anything and everything I want (last night I wanted pizza so badly and I resisted).  Tomorrow I’m having my friends over for dinner.  We are making comfort food and I still don’t know what I’m making and my home is still a mess.  Nick is going to make his corn casserole and I think I’m gonna make I’m excited because I love having my people over in my home and lighting candles and cleaning surfaces and all the cute preparation stuff. I hope that when I’m a mom that our house is the cool house that all my kids friends hang out at.