fashion inspiration of the day

Jennifer Aniston at the Golden Globes in 2004 because

I love a sexy black dress.

an emotional girl recommends red outfits

Hi internet void!

In December a bunch of the emotions I’d been gleefully and stoically suppressing started to demand I stop ignoring them! LOL was truly the most wonderful time of the year.  In the year 2019 I went through a really painful break up the most painful and only one I’ve ever had.  I am still processing it and working through the trauma and just intensity of it all.  We were living together at the time and then had to go through a horrible fire, friends staying at our house to visit and of course, both of our individual resentments and mental issues clashing and it was pure stress and suffering.  December was mourning and joy cause it was the first month I realized that everything ends and that was a pain and a relief for me.

I always look forward to the Christmas season though cause even if I’m truly going through it all the music and people tipping well and decorations cheer me up and keep me engaged and excited for every day of the year.  Last December I was going through a red phase and wore 3 red outfits that I really loved.  I was feeling really into red as it seemed to express my year and how I felt about it.  I was in red hot love and everything felt very intense. Here they are:

  1. I wore this dress to go see the Rockefeller Tree with all my friends. We put some baileys in our coffee and then danced in some midtown overpriced bar after and demanded they play bachata.  We got one song of it.   This dress is light and breathable.  I love that it comes with a belt because hourglass girls like me love to cinch our waists any time we get the chance.2. I wore this dress to see the neighborhood tree lighting with my best friend.  I made really delicious buttered apple cider and brought it there.  We got tons of nasty looks from insecure couples and from rude parents cause we didn’t have kids with us and we were taking flash photos of our beautiful selves 🙂  This was my first day wearing this dress and the rotweiler puppy I take care of decided to be a total dick and bit the side.  She made a 4 inch hole which I “fixed” with tape and a stapler cause I didn’t have time to go home and change after work and also I love the fit.  The dog still hasn’t apologized and I am still procrastinating sewing it.
  2. 3. This is probably my favorite look.  I went to look in the Adika pop up in NYC because I have a pair of biking shorts I love from them.  Most of the stuff was ordinary and too trendy for me but I instantly fell in love with this and had to have it as soon as I tried it on. I wore it to my dad’s holiday party and crowned myself in the top 5 best dressed. You can also wear it a bunch of sluttier ways but didn’t want to do that at my dads work party lol.

Links: The first dress is sold out.

2nd Dress

2rd outfit:

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December Favorites

I can’t tell y’all how happy I am that 2019 is over.  It had me all types of fucked up 🙂 Here are my favorite things of my favorite month of last year. Yes, I am late and writing from the first day of the new year and now I’m writing even later and publishing on the 7th day of the new year (#procrastination).

1.The 52 List Series:  This year I am gonig to really try to be an organized person who knows whats important to her and priotitzes those things and people. These books are so asthetically pleasing and fun to use and helpful. I have the planner and the 52 list project book.  I’m also a very type A person and enjoy planning things and it makes me feel in control. If you’re like this then you’ll love these books so you can pretend to have control over your life lmao.

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2. Lip gloss: I’m having a new renaissance of lip gloss. I like how it makes you look fresh and healthy and alive. The way I’ve been sleeping or not sleeping, I need all the help I can get. My favorites are this one and this one.

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3. Packing cubes: Every instagram travel influencer raves about these and like everything else they recommend I usually take it as white noice and ignore it.  But as someone who has never done a good job packing I thought it would be worth a try.  It is really helpful cause it helps you sort your suitcase like it’s drawers. Also it looks way less stressful than a bunch of clothes that were once carefully folded and is not chaos.  My mottos is less chaos 2020. I got these ones cause they were cheapest and came in a pretty light blue.

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4. These are so pretty that they are making the transition from christmas decoration to winter decoration.

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5.  Carne asada: both the party and the meat.  I went to Mexico for Christmas break and learned so much about my own culture.  I’ve missed out on a lot by living so far from the Mexican side of my family.  I had never in my life experienced food that was so rich and whipped up like it was nothing.  I was emotional the whole trip learning about my grandparents and discovering the stories of their lives that I never knew.  I was emotional at the carne asada listening to my dad and his sister cry and sing mariachi, I was emotional trying the smooth guacamole salsa verde, I was emotional struggling to speak Spanish to my relatives that didn’t speak English and I was emotional sipping my cafe on the patio in the sun while dogs ran about.  And now one of my 2020 resolutions is to learn how to cook Mexican food (especially tamales, menudo, posole and tacos).  My best friend whose boriqua and I are gonna do Sunday dinner every other week and one week will be Mexican food and the next week will be Puerto Rican food and we will learn both of our cultures cuisine together.

 

Dislikes:

  1. The cycle of being broke so buying a cheap computer and then the computer breaking and then having it break and then buying another cheap computer and now I’m almost at the ammount of money it would take to buy the computer I actually want new (macbook air)
  2. January and Feburary. What are the bright sides? Shitty freezing slushymonths with a holiday that is only fun if you’re in love and there’s a lot of us who aren’t.  And some of us are starving in these new diets smh.
  3. Milk going bad so damn quickly.  It’s a real rough start to my morning when my coffee is ready but my milk is… rotten.

Knives Out Review

I saw knives out and loved it even though that shit was triggering and I was considering walking out in the begining. For a big part of the movie it seems like they’re portraying immigrants as careless fuck ups who is to blame for everything. I think is a really careless thing to do at the moment especially in a movie that seems to be self aware of the American political moment. Please be warned that this is quite a bit more than a clue murder mystery. It’s politically charged and as a Mexican American it got to me. A lot of it is about the political climate and charged conversations what are happening between white families at gatherings.
The cast is fabulous and it’s amazingly acted. I never knew where it was going but also I never am able to guess who did it in mysteries. All my favorite movies have shots that I’ll never forget and that I think of when I think back on the movie and that I can see like I’m gonna watching it again. This movie has moments like that that I’ll not soon forget for example the close up on Marta’s face when the will is read, and of course of course the iconic last shot.  The end was my favorite part and made me feel fully entertained and full of hope.
My only critique of the movie is that once again Hollywood could and should have casted a person of color and didn’t.  The lead is white passing and I think the character if it was a real story happening in the real world would have been a brown woman but Hollywood wouldn’t do it. The movie was so fresh and bold in so many ways and yet STILL they couldn’t cast a person of color for the lead. Once again Hollywood like telenovelas casts Latina’s who look more like me and who look more European.  It’s sick and disappointing that in almost 2020 it’s still considered bold to cast a brown person as the lead.

I have been keeping a good reign on my emotions this December except for one very strong one which is if I don’t listen to Mariah Carey’s All I want for Christmas at least once a day I will die.