Christmas Eats

It’s a tradition in my family to make tamales every Christmas Eve but since it’s so time-consuming sometimes we don’t. This year we did (and by we I mean my dad did) but we started a bit late it didn’t end up being ready for dinner.  This is what usually happens.  So usually you have to fend for your self for Christmas Eve dinner and look in the fridge and see what you can whip up.  This year I made avocado toast.  When the tamales were finally ready on Christmas Day they were everything I dreamed they’d be and more and well worth the wait.

The thing’s I’m bringing with me: 2019 Edition

The main energy I’m going to try to bring into 2019 is trying to be happy, trying to be healthy and trying to move in the direction of my goals.

Coming with me into 2019: 

Wearing less heels:  I barely wore heels this year because it was really so painful and it just didn’t feel that necessary.  I’m a nanny and it would be ridiculous to wear heels to work when a lot of my job is pushing a stroller.  I want to feel cute and confident without having to be in physical pain and a lot of the (admittedly cheap) heels I had really really hurt me.  For me it’s not worth it.

Doing my own nails: Getting your nails done professionally is nice and all but I really hate the part where they file my nails (that feeling to me is like nails on a chalkboard) and I really don’t have the money to spend so often when they chip the next day and I get upset and guilt trip myself about spending the money.  And I really don’t blame the nail salon, it’s really that I wash dishes every day and I am a nanny so my hands are very much working hands.

Being a nanny:  Yes it’s true $20 an hour is the most I’ve ever been paid and I love having more money than before (this also comes with being more financially irresponsible than before 😦 but I also love the kids and it has it’s fufilling and sweet moments thought it’s also crazy exhausting helping raise four kids. And there’s a lot of tantrums.  It’s the best job I’ve ever had. Even though one of the 9-year-old girls said to me the other day “you wear too much makeup” when I was just wearing mascara and blush (?!?!) and when the 2-year-old is in a bad mood she will whine “I don’t want you here.”

Dying my hair red: I am killing my hair but oh well cause I’ve been to professionals as well and they kill my hair too but just for $100 and I can kill it for $12.  I really love being a redhead so this is the price I pay.

Lotioning after a shower: Any self-care that can easily be incorporated into everyday life and make me feel low key luxurious is a yes for me.

Leaving in 2019:

Buying cheap rings:  I really love the look where you have lots of rings on your fingers and I always have.  I especially love fake diamonds and I have been buying all sorts of fake diamond rings since middle school and it’s been a look… for better and for worse.  I buy them mainly from costume jewelry stores, Chinatown and the internet (the wish app) and those they are beautiful and sparkly for a while in a matter of weeks the stones either fall off or they lose their sparkle completely and start showing their true colors (cheap & plastic).  It’s fun but it’s such a waste of money and I am going to start investing in semi-decent (poor person version of semi-precious) quality rings.  I deserve it.

Working a whole month with no days off:  This is a hard pass.  I’ve done it multiple months this year and wow I feel it’s pain now.  It was just horrible and I barely had time to breathe.  Most of my text posts are rants about how my mental health is deteriorating because of my exhaustion.  With working a whole year straight I have learned this lesson: just because you can do something doesn’t mean you should. It’s hard though becuase I don’t want to choose money over peace of mind but the problem is that sometimes money is peace of mind.

Christmas shopping in December: Nah, never again.  I’m going to be adult adult and shop all year long and mostly online cause real-life shopping is stressful (mostly because of the music they play tbh).  I want all my Christmas shopping to be completed by October and all the gifts wrapped by the end of November so I don’t have to go bankrupt in December. Here’s hoping.

Buying lunch out instead of bringing it to work: I’m really pissed that I did this when I know how to make spaghetti and sandwiches like everyone else.  I feel like this is where all my money went.

I’m a nanny now.

I’m pretty happy right now.  I’m really hoping I’m out of my rut.  I have a job that I truly love and adore.  I get to take care of some really good and smart kids and it makes my heart happy.  It’s hard work and physically and sometimes emotionally taxing but it’s one of the only job’s I’ve gotten to do that is so so very worth it.  I’m the nanny to 4 children full time but it’s not too insane cause the mom is a stay at home mom so I’m not alone with all of the kids at once all the time.  It’s fun and rewarding and challenging and everything I’d want from a job and more.  We go to the park and the library a lot and I get to make dinner and read books and try to convince the kids not to go up slides and run into walls of the house with their baby strollers!  I really like the family and the mom and it makes me realize how much I do love people.  It’s making me hopeful about the future.  I really love my family and my friends and my novio and now I really love my job and I don’t know how to thank the universe enough.

ALSO every day it’s getting closer to Christmas!! It’s already less than 100 days.  I just love everything starting in October and ending in December (September is just pregaming for my happiest season for me).  I’m ready.

Yesterday I worked this winter wonderland party. Just know this takes a village and 9 hours. There the lighting team, the construction team, the planners (who are also crafters) and they’re all working hours and hours prior. I assembled 200 snowflakes and hung them and that alone took so much time. But it’s all worth it in the end, when you see the people’s faces as they walk in and you yourself get to see how magical it looks. Also I got 5 light up snowflakes, 4 boxes of cookies and two bottles of bourbon for free.