outfit moment

My red phase is still going strong with no end in sight. This is an outfit I never wore outside of my house so I needed to give it its moment to shine here. I really liked this look but it was a little uncomfortable. My friends and I are super lame/cute and went to a bachelor viewing party at a bar (yes it’s a thing). I drank lots of $8 rose and yelled at a lot of people in the TV. I ended up wearing this but without the lingerie underneath (& with out the red wine in my hand).

November Favorites

Trying this whole blogging thing once again because I am trying to come back to myself and come back to joy.  And I did find joy in the chronicling of my life that is blogging.  One of the parts I missed the most was at the end of the month deciding what were my favorite things.  I’m hoping to do all 12 months of 2020 so we shall see.

1. Table topics – I was just doing this with my best friend and she just said these were for people who don’t know how to hold a conversation. I disagree and I think they’re fun and I was doing them with my best friend and was finding out things I’ve never known and she’s someone who I spend so much time with.  I just bought it to keep it on my table. Here are some questions I like: what do you admire about your parents? and If you spend the weekend in any city which would you choose?

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2. False lashes – I have just discovered false lashes and I don’t think I ever will go back.  I love a full face of makeup and these make me feel like a glamorous woman and photo ready.  I also thought they were a lot harder to put on then they are.

Here are my favorite ones, the ones above (they are super cheap): false mink and cat eye

3. My adorable patio set – Just in time for it to get freezing outside I finally bought my cute little patio set and it looks just as sweet as I thought it would.  Also there was no set up at all which is good cause furniture set up and I don’t mesh.

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4. This nail polish 

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5. Persimmons – It’s persimmon season, baby!

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6. Sitting like this in the morning – it makes me feel awake and hopefully does something good for you?

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7.  The Balance app – It takes your birthday and birthtime and gives you a daily paragraph relating to your life. It seems really spot on and gives good advice every day.  I feel like it’s pretty insightful and always gives me something new to pay attention to in myself/to work on. And it’s free so worth a shot lol.

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8. NYT Cooking – I did thanksgiving this year as in planned it and cooked almost all of it and it wouldn’t have been possible without this app and website.  All my recipes were from there and most of them were simpler than I imagined.  They also had a whole list or recpies for vegan thanksgiving which was helpful as I never cooked vegan food before and half of our dinner guests were vegan.

This is what I made.

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9. Phone wallet – I started stupid and had one of those that was just little pocket and lost my debit card cause it fell out right before I had to leave town (do not reccomend).  And then after that I bought the linked one which was such a game changer for me.  The little flap makes it feel like a real secure wallet that you can close and it’s easier to leave the house with just phone/wallet and keys than keys, wallet and phone.  And it’s easier to not lose one thing than to not lose two.

10. Space heater – This is a contender for the best $20 I’ve ever spent cause it really saves my life once a week when my heats being wonky.  I don’t have a large room at all but it heats the whole thing up really quickly and it’s really small.  I have vents that come up from the basement so cold air always tires to sneak in and I also have a window right by where my head rests and a door to the backyrard in my room so my room is really prone to be freezing anytime.  This heater fixes that in less than 5 mins.

 

balance

It’s my favorite month of the year and I’m a 21-year-old who has already met the love of her life and I live on my own.  I have a really good life and I am really really lucky.  But it’s still really challenging.  I work full time and I have 2 very consuming internships and my side hustle all while still trying to be a writer.  I feel like I’m rushing through life and I’m sad I haven’t slow danced with my boyfriend in a while.  I want time to smell flowers and revel in my life with Nick.  I have so many dates planned but I don’t have the money or the free days to actually spend on them.  By the time I get home from my day job it’s 8pm and I’m exhausted and instead of cooking dinner or watching This is Us with Nick (all I want in this life right now) I have to go to the computer and answer emails or go do a project and start working on that and then when I finish with that I’m so often too tired to do anything else except set the alarm and rest.  It’s not a good quality of life for me or him.  And he feels like he’s losing me.

I’ve been prioritizing the wrongs things.  I’m very ambitious and I am very hard working and those have not been good things lately.  To me, my family, novio and friends are the most important aspects of my life… I just wish my weekly calendar would show that more.  I am not good at not working and I am not good at managing my time,  I feel so deeply and (pressingly, and stressfully) that if I don’t work my ass off now while I’m young I will be poor forever and have to work this hard forever and it will be this consuming.  I’m scared I’m gonna be stuck in an apartment without my name on the lease and in credit card debt forever.  I’m scared I’ll never accomplish my goals and I’ll never be successful enough to be able to even have children.  I am the most scared I have ever been.

But what I am most scared about isn’t that.  I’m most scared I’ll lose Nick who is everything to me.  He’s the person I can talk to about anything and reason I believe in love and magic and people having a love of their life (and all my others if reincarnation is real).  Next month I am leaving the country for a business trip for three weeks and it will be the first time Nick and I are apart for this long.  I really hope that it makes us stronger and doesn’t break us.  I really hope that I find balance before then even though it’s less than a month away and people don’t often fix all their problems and find life balance in a month.  Here’s to trying and praying! lots of trying and praying.

Also if anyone has any advice on how they found balance with work and social life or how to get their life together please feel free to let me know!! Thank you 🙂

being annoying at breakfast via wearing sunglasses inside

My favorite place to eat or even be in Woodstock, NY (my hometown) is Maria’s Bazaar.  Maria, the lovely Italian woman who started it and filled it with love and delicious food recently retired and sold it to someone else who now redecorated it with booths (good!) and decided to start serving very limp pizza (very bad!).  Needless to say, we miss her dearly but as loyal customers and people who grew up here, we still love it.  It actually is cozier and has a kind of diner feel now but the food quality has suffered.

When I went upstate we went for breakfast with my sister Frida, and friend’s Gracie and Tiana.  Gracie grew up here as well as she has a summer home here and would come up every summer.  We met at summer camp.

Oh and! Here’s me forcing my friends to take pictures of me cause I had never worn a wrap dress before and I was feeling myself in my new Audrey Hepburn inspired sunglasses.  Also a selfie of me with my very chic little sister!

Birthday Things

I am still not over my birthday cause 1) I low key love attention and 2) cause I felt so so loved.  My mom gave me this beautifully decorated cigar box which and the presents in it were a swiss army (which can do anything and save your life basically) and a beautiful blue crystal necklace and matching bracelet.  My sister Frida wrapped everything perfectly in beautiful wrapping paper… I am actually in awe of her wrapping skills.   Every year for at least 7 years we go to the same Chinese food buffet in Kingston, NY and we feast (this time I made it to 3 plates) and it’s an amazing amount of food and so satisfying.  It’s one of my favorite and the most sacred traditions I have. I open presents and my family sings to me (embarrassingly in both English and Spanish).  Every year my friends and I take a photo in the bathroom (again embarrassing) and it’s so crazy to look back on these photos for posterity.  The friend group has changed grown smaller cause I’ve stopped being friends with some and also cause some of my dearest friends have moved away and started my life.  Two of my best friends were unable to make it this time, Hali goes to RISD and lives in Providence and Olivia lives in a tent in California where she works on a farm.  As I’ve grown older though, I think I’ve gotten smarter about who I choose to spend my life with and I’m very proud to be associated with the people I call best friends.  They inspire me every day.IMG_1676IMG_1645