Grocery Store Tessa is back to the minimum wage hustle

Hi Internet Void!

I have had so many jobs in my 22 years that I feel like a barbie with different professions but without the cute outfits.  There’s nanny Tessa! pharmacy Tessa! and now grocery store Tessa!  I’m on the 2nd week of my job at a west village grocery store.  This means a lot of things but most importantly that I haven’t been paid yet.  It’s pretty easy because I’m a cashier and I’ve done this before.  The only big difference is that all the fruits and vegetables have a four number code that I have to memorize and that some of them have to be weighed and some of them are priced individually and I have to memorize what is what.

I also am getting used to wearing gloves and a mask for 8 hrs a day.  I have definitely found that my breath doesn’t smell which is a win.  And I’ve gotten a little smart with it in that I’m putting hand cream on before I clock in so that my hands can get softer and softer in the gloves as I work.  Also since the only part of my face that people can see is my eyes I’ve been having fun with my eye makeup.  I’ve been trying to wear fake eyelashes every day and colorful eyeshadow.  And under the mask, I’m wearing no makeup and sometimes pimple cream.  People compliment my make up and say it’s nice to see someone putting in effort during such hard times.  I want to tell them, all I am doing is putting in effort.  Me being here is putting in the effort, life to me seems like one big effort after another.

I’ve been feeling pretty depressed and down because so many people are dying and everyone is so stressed.  You can tell that everyone is feeling it.  Once again this city is full of death and you can see little shades of depression and sadness in everyone.  I know I’m feeling exhausted.  The act even of walking to the subway and getting on the bleak slow empty subway is a downer and takes so much longer than it usually would.  The trains are running every 30 mins so I leave the house two hours before work. Customers at work are snapping at each other for cutting in line or standing too close.  Customers are still walking into the grocery store without a mask even though that is now illegal.  We are telling customers to wear a mask and that same customer will show up non chalently the next day barefaced.  There are the overly cautious and the selfish and those who don’t think but it’s clearer than it’s ever been before.  Customers complain about being bored while I ring up their groceries and my knees ache from standing all day.  I’ve forgotten the cruelty of minimum wage jobs.  How you’re required to do so many things while getting paid the least they’re legally allowed to.  How the daily hours of 7am to 10pm haven’t been cut short even though people are suggested by the government to be home by 8am.  The cruelty of having to stand all day, of having just a 15 min break somedays and having to clock out and not get paid for it.  The having to wear the uniform every day and being given only one uniform shirt when almost guaranteed everyone who works there doesn’t have a washer or dryer.  The fact that there is no hazard pay, that there are still so many people who have to work even though to leave the house is to risk your life.

Glowy Interview Makeup (I got the job)

Hi Internet Void!

It’s been a hard time for basically everyone everywhere.  I’ve (hopefully) temporarily lost all three of my jobs because of the coronavirus.  Once the panic and stress set in I applied to tons of jobs on Indeed and the only one that got back to me was a grocery store company.  I have worked as a cashier before.  One of the best jobs I’ve ever had was being a cashier at CVS in high school.  The only terrifying thing is going from making the $25 an hour I made as a nanny to $15 an hour.  Minimum wage is extremely hard to get by on especially in NYC.  It went really well and I was so nervous and bumbling during the first few moments of the interview but I snapped back.  She offered me the job on the spot and I’m gonna have orientation tomorrow.

Anywayys this is a makeup post and this is how I did my face for the interview.  I wanted to do a natural glowy and healthy look that really let my natural beauty shine.  That meant sadly no fake eyelashes and no glitter lids and because of that I didn’t think it would be fun but it actually was and I LOVE this look.  The foundation I used was very dewy and made it so I didn’t have to use any highlighter on my cheeks.

Makeup used:

  1. Maybelline dream urban cover foundation in 120 classic ivory
  2. Ciate watermelon burst hydrating primer
  3. Rimmel insta duo contour stick in light
  4. Wet and wild photo focus concealer in light ivory
  5. Doucce bombastic lash volumizer mascara
  6. Real techniques sponge
  7. Space case seen from space 1C highlighter (just under the eyebrow)
  8. NYX lip liner in brunch me
  9. NYC suede lipstick in brunch me
  10. Huda beauty warm brown obsessions (I only used the light brown color that’s in the bottom row in the middle
  11. Black liquid eyeliner

My glowy no makeup makeup look

Hi! Since I’ve mostly been waking up drinking coffee than getting in my bikini & making cocktails and sunbathing in my backyard with my roommate I haven’t needed the most elaborate makeup routine. I’m of the “i need to put my face on” camp so most days I do do a little something. This look is super glowy fresh faced and youthful. I like it cause it makes me look well rested and perky. This is a little time lapse of me doing my glowy no makeup makeup look:

The final look
The products:
1. Wet and wild photo focus concealer (I used the shade light ivory)
2. Space case highlighter in Seen from Space 1c (for under eyebrows)
3. Maybelline total temptation brow definer in soft brown
4. Space case blush in its not me, it’s my sign
5. Doucce bombastic lash volumizer mascara
6. M.A.C strobe cream in pinklite (the most natural and glowy highlight I’ve ever loved)
7. Benefit gimme brow
8. Laura Geller nude kisses lip hugging lip gloss in a skinny dip

makeup recreation: a Kylie Jenner pastel look

One of my New Years resolutions this year is to get better at makeup as it’s something I love to do and I spend so much time doing it and I would love to master it. I’ve been saving makeup inspiration photos on Instagram and starting to recreate there. I’m very much a beginner so I’m doing my best.

learning how to do eyeliner & other things I should already know how to do

My favorite season of the year has officially begun and with this the world gets nicer, cosier and I cling tighter to my loved ones.  Yesterday my best friend and I met by Colombus Circle to get hot chocolate and chai and walk around Central Park.  She had just been on a date there that didn’t lead to anything so she wanted to replace the association with a happy one.  We put our diamonds rings on our ring finger so people would leave us alone even though we are both very single. It was the perfect brisk but not shivery weather so it was lovely and calming.

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I did this eyeliner look because I’m trying okay.  I tried (in vain) in high school to learn how to do makeup but my high school bff was the queen of it and mine looked especially wonky right next to hers.  So I am trying again and it’s not as impossible as I hyped it up to be, it just takes me forever.

I really like how it came out and how I felt like a boss bitch. My hair was all the way slicked back and my makeup was all the way done and my hoops were on.  I’m usually self-conscious when my hair is back like this but because I had really put in the effort to my makeup and caked it on like there’s no tomorrow I felt powerful and confident.  We went to this really smelly and regular dive bar in the East Village and we met one of my friends and talked about our traumas over $4 beers.

It was a good time.

what I’m mad about today

I’m mad and still somewhat bewildered about who our president and I remain so deeply disappointed in Americans.

I’m more hopeful for Mexico than American right now.

I’m mad that the chapstick industry relies on our lips being chapped so most chapsticks don’t work or work for 2 seconds. I’m constantly in a never ending circle of chapped lips and the 2 seconds of having not chapped lips and then repeat. It’s shouldn’t be such a struggle.