I’ve tried but I’m not yet the type of person who likes to workout. In fact, last night after I got out of work at 8pm I trudged myself to an 8:30 pm barre class and hated it. I realized that they have a policy that your shirt has to cover your midriff which was unfortunate for me as the workout outfit I had brought with me to change into consisted of leggings and a sports bra. So I decided to wear my outfit for the day with my sports bra underneath which was a flowy romper. I stuck out completely being the only one not in the obvious uniform of Lululemon and more Lululemon and wearing a full blown outift (not at all moisture wicking!!!). I was also the fattest there which is always a trip because I’m not fat I’m just curvy. And I was also the least white which was strange and unnerving. It just wasn’t my scene and also I weak af and that shit burns.
I felt empowered at first when I walked in 1) cause I was proud of myself for going to work out after the long-ass and hard day I had just endured and 2) because I was surrounded by beautiful women and there was something so sentimental about all of us getting stronger together, all of our weighted arms in the air and then down.
But that didn’t last long because those classes hurt and make me feel so weak. I am so out of shape and apparently, that was something I had in common with … exactly no one in the room. Only ten minutes in I was already thinking snarky bitter things like “I’ve done a lot of stupid things in my life but at least I’ve never spent $100 on leggings before.” Also they are always saying “tuck, tuck” which from what I can tell is a tiny thrust and I feel like I’m always doing it wrong and then I see my self in the mirror, feel incredibly ungraceful and want to laugh and then try to turn the urge to laugh into an ab workout.
Another thing I don’t like about this barre classe (Pure Barre) is it feels very unprivate and a bit dated. I like spin classes (I feel like “spin class” sounds so annoying and pretentious) because a lot of the time you can feel alone if you try. The more alone I feel in a workout class the less I compare myself to others and the less my self esteem tanks. They have cool lights which makes everyone look cool or they turn off the lights completely which I love. At Pure Barre the lights feel very fluorescent and are on the whole time until the end. A lot of times you’re direct across from someone (whose looking very strong and capable which is the opposite of how I’m feeling). When I think of the aesthetic of Pure Barre studio it’s very beige and I think it would be so much better with lights that would bath the room in color. But I guess that wouldn’t be very pure lol.