January Favorites

This is the year I do my favorites every month. Or so she says in the first year of the month :)) fingers crossed.  I hope that we are all still full of hope for this year.

Pozole: I am a Mexican and I have finally learned how to make Pozole and I feel so alive lol.  Now that I’ve completed this rite of passage I am pretty much living off of it this winter.

Cyc spin class: I tried SoulCycle and that shit was too corny for me and also way too much money. Though I did like that they had Drunken Elephant skincare products in the bathroom.  I like Cyc cause it’s about the music and they’re not judgy.  It’s “beat based” and the instructors are inspirational but not over the top.  Also they’re cheaper at $22 a class vs. SoulCycle’s thirty-something.

The dessert: I grew up in the mountains and love the beach.  My dad grew up in the dessert and it was so amazing experiencing it on our way into Mexicali. I love the stillness of it, the feeling of being alone (until immigration inevitably shows up).  I also really love the color scheme.

Rica juice: tastes like orange juice but better cause it’s a little unhealthy

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Cheer on Netflix: It’s insanely impressive and I booked a workout for the next morning after the 1st episode.  It’s about the best cheerleaders in the USA (maybe the world?) leading up to the championship and it’s one of those shows that leaves you in awe of what humans can do.  It’s also beautifully shot and makes you fall in love with the people it’s about.

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This is my favorite body lotion and has been for a while.  It smells like Jolly Ranches and absorbs quicker than any other lotion I’ve ever used.

This recipe: I switched out the miso paste for tables spoons of trader joe’s boxed miso soup.  And I couldn’t find Tamari sauce at my grocery store so we used thick soba sauce and my grocery failed once again in not having Brussel sprouts so we used broccoli.  Long story short it was delicious and amazing and tasted like something made in a restaurant and not by my incompetent hands.  The sauce was insanely good and we covered it in lime juice. It was a wow meal


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Hanalei Lip Treatment in clear:  It feels really luxurious and makes your lips feel lush and protected.  This has been my go to during this season of dry and red skin and so far my lips haven’t been chapped.  My very favorite thing about it might be the smell which is sweet and comforting.


Global warming: It so real and so apparent here in NYC.  We had basically no snow in December and it’s been raining.  I’ve worn sundresses in January.  It’s so strange and jarring and please let me know what I can do to help.

Duvets: more trouble than they’re worth. I’m a professional cleaner who has changed them and dealt with them a million times and I still hate them.  I just wash my comforter and its easier than washing the duvet cover and doing the whole ugly gymnastic routine to get it on the duvet.

worth your $20: Bikini Edition

Listen, I’m a lazy fuck who forgets that birthdays are happening until they’re basically here and who doesn’t like to go shopping in actual stores cause it causes me duress and lots of stress so I get my bikinis from Amazon and hope for the best. I ordered two for my vacation to Martinique.  I love this one because it’s very vacationy and I love this shade of orange.  This top is very supportive and I love that the straps are adjustable. And high waisted bikinis are a lifestyle to me. This one is $16.99 and available for prime. The link is here.

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what it looks like on me (an unphotoshopped girl)


The orange one was my favorite bikini I ordered.

This other one is very lovely as well, my only complaint is that after wearing it in the pool and the ocean for a few days the elastic in the top got a bit worn and it was looser on the top.  It was still really cute and made me feel like Brigitte Bardot in her white bikini.


This bikini is my version of that with a little more coverage for my areas that need it lol.  The fabric is nice and thick. Here is the photo on the website. And this is the link.  It is $17.99 and available for prime.

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This is me in the bikini in real life on the beach 🙂

I hope that you have a vacation coming up soon and I hope you find a bikini that makes you feel gorgeous!

hello internet void

Hello internet,

I have not given up on this blog.  I just have been busy and prioritizing other things.  Good things are happening! Bad things are happening!  The internship that I had turned into a part time job, I’m trying to stay hydrated!  I’ve been procrastinating cleaning my room for weeks!  I’m still a nanny!  I have a week of this coming week for the first time in years!  I’m going on a vacation and it’s the first vacation that I’ve ever taken!  I’m so excited!  I’m so stressed financially!  I have been declined from 80 literary magazines on submittable!  I left my poetry journal in the children’s room of a library!  My rent doubled in price!  I got a really beautiful coat!  I am watching la casa de papel and it’s one of the best shows I’ve ever seen in my life!

This is some of the things that are new!  I’m really gonna try to make this a real functioning blog!

That’s all.

If anyones reading this thats cool.



succeeding in NYC is hard to do

Ok so I always wanna say to the people who watch Sex and the City and are like oh my god, i wanna move to NYC and be a writer/actor and do glamorous stuff and live like Carrie… it’s not like that.  Unless you’re some type of rich person it’s gonna be so much hustle and work and craziness to even get to one dreamy tv moment.  Also NYC is beautiful and sparkly but it’s also really gross.  There is trash on all streets that aren’t SoHo and sometime’s you’ll have to keep checking the bottom of your feet to see if you stepped in shit cause you keep smelling it… 9/10 it’s not you, it’s the streets.  There are rats in the subways and don’t ever sit on a subway seat on a full train without checking, usually there’s some sort of liquid on it.  You’re at some point gonna see a rodent or cockroach in your home.  I’ve never missed rent but I barely make into the next month with much money left over… I can not emphasize enough how expensive rent it.  All the apartments you’ve ever seen on sitcoms of New Yorker’s who have a waitressing job and a roomy living room … oh honey it’s gonna be so many worlds away from that.  My 2nd apt in the city was so small that once I put the twin size mattress on the floor there was only inches left surrounding and I was paying almost $1000 for that monthly.  My boyfriend and I would trip over each others limbs when we both stood up at the same time in the room and we would also trip over the clothes flowing out of the closet cause there was no room to even have a dresser. Even getting a waitressing job is difficult to get in the city cause a lot of places require you to have years of experience working in the city.

If your dream is to move to New York City do it!!  Just don’t expect it to be easy and gorgeous all the time.  You have to work for things to maybe be easy (easier) one day and you have to make and find the gorgeousness your self.  Have savings for a few months or a job lined up and be prepared to work two times harder than you did when you lived in your small town.  The city will hurt your feelings.  You are gonna have to fight for yourself and hustle non stop.  I dealt with a schizophrenic roommate who threatened to kill me, a kitchen with no lights, a 5 floor walk up, a boss who stole the money I worked for, a leaky ceiling, having four jobs at ounce and still struggling to provide the necessities for myself.  I’ve been back in the city for a year and a half and i’m just beginning to be set up and financially ok and have things in my life that are consistent.  This week I had a really promising interview with a hairstylist from a makeover show that I watched religiously with my highschool best friend and went to an awesome makeup launch party with my best friend.  I booked the flights for my first trip for business and went to my soul sucking job yesterday with a light hopeful feeling for better things to come.  But the better things don’t come.. you have to work and will them into existence with months of effort and hard labor.  Those moments seemed surreal and like TV NYC.  But they are so few and far between.