makeup recreation #1

One of my New Years resolutions this year is to get better at makeup as it’s something I love to do and I spend so much time doing it and I would love to master it. I’ve been saving makeup inspiration photos on Instagram and starting to recreate there. I’m very much a beginner so I’m doing my best.

December Favorites

I can’t tell y’all how happy I am that 2019 is over.  It had me all types of fucked up 🙂 Here are my favorite things of my favorite month of last year. Yes, I am late and writing from the first day of the new year and now I’m writing even later and publishing on the 7th day of the new year (#procrastination).

1.The 52 List Series:  This year I am gonig to really try to be an organized person who knows whats important to her and priotitzes those things and people. These books are so asthetically pleasing and fun to use and helpful. I have the planner and the 52 list project book.  I’m also a very type A person and enjoy planning things and it makes me feel in control. If you’re like this then you’ll love these books so you can pretend to have control over your life lmao.

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2. Lip gloss: I’m having a new renaissance of lip gloss. I like how it makes you look fresh and healthy and alive. The way I’ve been sleeping or not sleeping, I need all the help I can get. My favorites are this one and this one.

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3. Packing cubes: Every instagram travel influencer raves about these and like everything else they recommend I usually take it as white noice and ignore it.  But as someone who has never done a good job packing I thought it would be worth a try.  It is really helpful cause it helps you sort your suitcase like it’s drawers. Also it looks way less stressful than a bunch of clothes that were once carefully folded and is not chaos.  My mottos is less chaos 2020. I got these ones cause they were cheapest and came in a pretty light blue.

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4. These are so pretty that they are making the transition from christmas decoration to winter decoration.

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5.  Carne asada: both the party and the meat.  I went to Mexico for Christmas break and learned so much about my own culture.  I’ve missed out on a lot by living so far from the Mexican side of my family.  I had never in my life experienced food that was so rich and whipped up like it was nothing.  I was emotional the whole trip learning about my grandparents and discovering the stories of their lives that I never knew.  I was emotional at the carne asada listening to my dad and his sister cry and sing mariachi, I was emotional trying the smooth guacamole salsa verde, I was emotional struggling to speak Spanish to my relatives that didn’t speak English and I was emotional sipping my cafe on the patio in the sun while dogs ran about.  And now one of my 2020 resolutions is to learn how to cook Mexican food (especially tamales, menudo, posole and tacos).  My best friend whose boriqua and I are gonna do Sunday dinner every other week and one week will be Mexican food and the next week will be Puerto Rican food and we will learn both of our cultures cuisine together.

 

Dislikes:

  1. The cycle of being broke so buying a cheap computer and then the computer breaking and then having it break and then buying another cheap computer and now I’m almost at the ammount of money it would take to buy the computer I actually want new (macbook air)
  2. January and Feburary. What are the bright sides? Shitty freezing slushymonths with a holiday that is only fun if you’re in love and there’s a lot of us who aren’t.  And some of us are starving in these new diets smh.
  3. Milk going bad so damn quickly.  It’s a real rough start to my morning when my coffee is ready but my milk is… rotten.

Right now the cafe i’m in is playing the full Mamma Mia sound track and wow i am not ready for all that at 10am.  I am already having a hard day.  It’s my nanny bosses birthday and so I’m working from 12pm to 10pm and I woke up exhausted so it’s gonna be a rough one.  I woke up an hour before I had to go (this is a win because lately I’ve been waking up at 10:25 am when I’m supposed to leave at 10:30 am).  I made my self coffee which I took one sip of and gagged.  I managed to put on mascara and blush and brush my teeth and I felt proud that I had the effort for that.

For me so far 2019 is about trying to stay sane and working hard.  Also a bit more adulting.  I’ve stop treating myself to anything and everything I want (last night I wanted pizza so badly and I resisted).  Tomorrow I’m having my friends over for dinner.  We are making comfort food and I still don’t know what I’m making and my home is still a mess.  Nick is going to make his corn casserole and I think I’m gonna make I’m excited because I love having my people over in my home and lighting candles and cleaning surfaces and all the cute preparation stuff. I hope that when I’m a mom that our house is the cool house that all my kids friends hang out at.

 

The thing’s I’m bringing with me: 2019 Edition

The main energy I’m going to try to bring into 2019 is trying to be happy, trying to be healthy and trying to move in the direction of my goals.

Coming with me into 2019: 

Wearing less heels:  I barely wore heels this year because it was really so painful and it just didn’t feel that necessary.  I’m a nanny and it would be ridiculous to wear heels to work when a lot of my job is pushing a stroller.  I want to feel cute and confident without having to be in physical pain and a lot of the (admittedly cheap) heels I had really really hurt me.  For me it’s not worth it.

Doing my own nails: Getting your nails done professionally is nice and all but I really hate the part where they file my nails (that feeling to me is like nails on a chalkboard) and I really don’t have the money to spend so often when they chip the next day and I get upset and guilt trip myself about spending the money.  And I really don’t blame the nail salon, it’s really that I wash dishes every day and I am a nanny so my hands are very much working hands.

Being a nanny:  Yes it’s true $20 an hour is the most I’ve ever been paid and I love having more money than before (this also comes with being more financially irresponsible than before 😦 but I also love the kids and it has it’s fufilling and sweet moments thought it’s also crazy exhausting helping raise four kids. And there’s a lot of tantrums.  It’s the best job I’ve ever had. Even though one of the 9-year-old girls said to me the other day “you wear too much makeup” when I was just wearing mascara and blush (?!?!) and when the 2-year-old is in a bad mood she will whine “I don’t want you here.”

Dying my hair red: I am killing my hair but oh well cause I’ve been to professionals as well and they kill my hair too but just for $100 and I can kill it for $12.  I really love being a redhead so this is the price I pay.

Lotioning after a shower: Any self-care that can easily be incorporated into everyday life and make me feel low key luxurious is a yes for me.

Leaving in 2019:

Buying cheap rings:  I really love the look where you have lots of rings on your fingers and I always have.  I especially love fake diamonds and I have been buying all sorts of fake diamond rings since middle school and it’s been a look… for better and for worse.  I buy them mainly from costume jewelry stores, Chinatown and the internet (the wish app) and those they are beautiful and sparkly for a while in a matter of weeks the stones either fall off or they lose their sparkle completely and start showing their true colors (cheap & plastic).  It’s fun but it’s such a waste of money and I am going to start investing in semi-decent (poor person version of semi-precious) quality rings.  I deserve it.

Working a whole month with no days off:  This is a hard pass.  I’ve done it multiple months this year and wow I feel it’s pain now.  It was just horrible and I barely had time to breathe.  Most of my text posts are rants about how my mental health is deteriorating because of my exhaustion.  With working a whole year straight I have learned this lesson: just because you can do something doesn’t mean you should. It’s hard though becuase I don’t want to choose money over peace of mind but the problem is that sometimes money is peace of mind.

Christmas shopping in December: Nah, never again.  I’m going to be adult adult and shop all year long and mostly online cause real-life shopping is stressful (mostly because of the music they play tbh).  I want all my Christmas shopping to be completed by October and all the gifts wrapped by the end of November so I don’t have to go bankrupt in December. Here’s hoping.

Buying lunch out instead of bringing it to work: I’m really pissed that I did this when I know how to make spaghetti and sandwiches like everyone else.  I feel like this is where all my money went.